On Tuesday,January 25th,2005,our cat of 11 years was found dead on the kitchen floor.He died of a sudden heart attack,though at first my dad blamed himself.

Styme,or Dinks,as we so lovingly called him,was deaf and continued to act like a kitten long after he'd grown up.Perhaps that is why his death came as such a shock.It'll take us a long time to get over it,because although my mother says he was just a cat,he was the complete opposite.He was a part of the family,and we'd had him for almost (minus 4 years)all of my 15 year old life.We took it for granted that he would always be around,and now that he is gone he will be missed greatly.

*Okay,that was for Styme,this part is for me.I was the one who found Dinks.I had been home for 1/2 an hour when I went into the kitchen and saw him on the floor.I don't think I fully comprehended that he was gone untill I was calling my dad and saying the words outloud. After I got off the phone with my dad and cried hysterically.Still in tears,I got a towel from the closet and covered Dinks up.

The reality that Dinks is no longer with us has been hard for me to except. That Tuesday night I woke up like I always do to see if he was sleeping at the foot of my bed.You see,Dinks liked to sleep in my room,and I would always wake up in the middle of the night to see if he was still there.As soon as I realized that he was not there,and he would never be there again,I dissolved into tears.The same thing has happened that afternoon.Dinks would always greet me at the door when I got home from school,so I cried a little yesterday.I cried last night also.He used to do this annoying thing of meowing like crazy when he was looking for me and I was in the bath.Last night,when I took my bath,I cried knowing I would never hear that again.

The thing is,I keep torturing myself by thinking simple things like,"The last time I wore this,Dinks was alive." Or, "The last time I went there,Dinks was alive." It's dumb I know,but I can't seem to stop.When will I get over this?*

I'm so sorry for your loss. He sounds like a wonderful cat. I don't think you ever really get over losing someone that has been part of your family. I don't think the way you are feeling is dumb at all.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I agree with Lisa kay it's totally not dumb. It is loosing a part of your family, a huge part of your life. I truely believe our animals like all our Ancestors look out for us from elsewhere. Everyone grieves in thier own way, you find what you need. I have a Daylilly Garden of all my past friends. I've moved it 3 times.

Thanx guys

I completely agree with both LisaKay and Vinity...

It's not dumb, it's life. Those of us who have been blessed with wonderful companions know exactly how you feel. We're here for you!

It will take time, it will get better. And you'll never completely forget him.

We lost a Cocker Spaniel after 17 years [very long for a CS]. It was hard, it took time. We also have a garden for Cinnamon, we spread her ashes in the garden she used to dig in.

Hugs and Prayers go out to you and your family

*~DramaQueen~*

I know how you feel....this was the thread i posted a year ago

http://www.mediablvd.com/forums/viewtopic.php?t=10651

I'm so sorry to hear that..losing a pet can be so difficult..
They become part of your family in a way..especially after so many years..

Hey guys!I thought I'd give you an update on how I'm doing,which is pretty okay.Of course I still miss Dinks but it doesn't hurt as much as it used to.Thanks for your sympathies.

I know exactly how you feel, my cat Lightning died on Valentines day this year, he was 14 and it was absolutely devastating!

im sorry popprincess