Haley
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"They are great.. i mean we got into this horrible fight when they found out i was pregnant but later on we made up..thank God..my mom will see my dress and give the opinion but i dont care..it`s perfect, right?/ I mean you saw.."


Nathan----"I am sorry Brooke. He just makes me so angry."

Lindsey----"Yes Haley your dress is beautiful. You are going to be a beautiful bride."

Haley
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"Good..good I just making sure.."

Haley
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I hang up with Linds then go back to bed. I was so confused..but i had to stop being so confused..it wouldnt do any good. I sigh then sleep, no very weel .When the alarm goes off i am already awake. I smile at a asleep Jamie next to me then kiss his forehead "morning sleepy head"

BRooke:" i know" we both fall asleep and in the moring the neruse brings in the baby and says we can all go home i look at nathan " well... where is home?"

Nathan-----"I rented us an apartment for now. When you told me we could stay here I went and found it and I also got us furniture. It is ready to go to." I look in to her eyes "Thanks for being willing to stay here with me."

Haley
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I am making pancakes when I hear the door knocking "here Lil, mix this for me, kay?" i kiss her forehead then go answer and it is my mom "hi mom.."

who can play her mom then her dad?

Brooke:" your welcome " he kissed me on the forhead and went to sige the papers i kiss the baby " i just hope i am making the right choice by staying " i say tomyself and wait for nathan to come take us to the car


Cindy James :" hey baby..... glad too see me i know you are where are my grandchildern?"

Haley
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'Hey ma" i hug her then pull away "oh they are inside." i say as i look outside "where`s daddy?"

Cindy James:" oh you know your fauther work work work he will be here on firday for the wedding sat .... i came to help my baby get ready "


Micheal: i am at home thinking about everything and i needed to talk to haley i call her on the cell

Haley
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"Bu-but..the wedding is tomorrow..daddy better be here tomorrow.." i hear my cell "come on in mom." i close the door and Lily comes "Go hug grandma honey" i then pick up my cell "yeah hello?"

Nathan----I sign the papers than go pull the car up close. I go to Brooke's room and a nurse is waiting with a wheel chair. I take the flowers Brooke got and her suit case and we go to the car. I put our son in his car seat while Brooke gets things situated. "I got the niecset apartment I could find. I hope you like it."

Micheal:" hey its micheal i need to see you right now it is very important meet me at the docks ok"

BRooke:" im sure i will.... i just wish it was our home in NYC " i stop talking after that and get in the car

Haley
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"But Mike..uh..my mom is here, remeber that i told you she was coming for the wedding, well she just got here."

Nathan-----"I know you want to go home. I need to spend some more time with Jamie and Lily than we can go. This will not be for forever Brooke....I promise."

BRooke:" i... i know " i looka t him adn then look at my baby boy i loved him so much


Micheal:" i know and i am sorry but it is important we need to talk now"

hALEY
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"But Mike..." i sigh "fine..i`ll ask my mom to stay here and check on the kids and i will meet you ast the docks, alright?"

Micheal:" ok thank you see you in ten" i change cloths and go and wiat for her i get there and sit down so scard to talk to her

Haley
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i hang up and ask my mom to check on the kids. I get changed and kiss my kids then leave to thedocks, when i get there Michael is already there. I walk over him and kiss him "hey husband to be." i smile "sorry i made you wait..my mom is taking care of the kids..can you believe that she actually asked me if you and i were going to get togheter for a pre matrimonial get togheter or something..i told you she is crazy" i chuckle "so..whats up??"

Michael:" he.... " i take a deep breath " haley listin i love you so much you are the only girl i have ever loved and i love those kids like they were my own.... you know that right?" she says yes " ok .... i .. gosh this is so hard to tell you.... i am not sure if you and i getting married right now is the best thing for us to do "

Haley
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"Yes, I know that..and there is one of the many reasons why i love you..what´s wrong Mike??" i say softly then he says thisis hard to say "Wha-what?? Wh-why??? You...you dont wanna be with me??"

Michael:" no i want to marry you i want to be with you forever but i think you are confuesed ever since NAthan has come back you have actted differant and not the same haley ......... i think you are still inlove with him and i can not marry you knowing that i might lose you to him "

Nathan----We get to the apartment and I carry all the stuff inside while Brooke gets our son. I show her inside and the baby's room. I rented us the nicest place I could find and I got us a three bed room so we would have plenty of room. I watch as Brooke looks around. "So what do you think?"

Haley
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"What??/ Michael...I..look Nathan and I were in love..a long time ago but that is in the past..he has a wife and a baby now..and i have you"

Brooke: i look around " it is nice lots of room" i give him a lil grin he ask whats wrong " its just when i dreamed of bring my baby home it was to our home where i made his babyroom all together and stuff i just trying to get used to being here sorry"


Micheal:" I know that haley but .... things are just crazy and i love you so much but when he is around you change can you tell me honistly say you do not have feelings for him at all? and please tell me the truth "

Haley
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"I change??? HOW do I change?? I`m the same person I`ve always been! I love you and I want to be with you..Nathan and I..we are past..i cant cut him out of my life because of the kids..he broke my heart Micheal..and you healed it"

Micheal:" you are not as happy as your used to be it is like he brough back all that pain with you " it was killing me to do this " i just want to know that this is truly what you want and no Nathan ..... that if he ever came for oyu you would stay with me i need to know that now "

Nathan----"I am sorry Brooke. I know this is not what you want. I need to be able to spend some more time with my kids before I leave. I do not even know them very well. I have not really spent any time with Lily yet. "

BRooke:" nathan i know....... and i am fine with that its just .... nevermind i have to feed Blake " i pick up the baby and go sit down in the babyroom

Haley
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"He did.." i nod "he did bring the pain back, because everytime i see him i remeber how much he hurt me..how he left me heart broken and chose be with her..so tell me Micheal..how can you think i wanna be with someone that brings so much pain to me???"

Micheal:" im sorry haley i just had to make sure befor we walked down that ale toamrrow i want to marry you with all my heart "

Haley
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"I need closure.." he says what "from Nathan..I need closure once for all and we never had one..I need that..."

Micheal:" what dose that mean haley?"

Haley
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"It means I need to talk to Nathan and end this..once for all"

Micheal:" well once you do that then you let me know...."

Haley
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"I`m gonna do it now.." i walk over him and kiss him "see you later?"

Micheal:" bye" i watch her walk away and i go back home i take a showrr and lay down waiting fo rher to call

Haley
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I watch him walk away and go back home. I tell mym om to look at the kids again then i get the box that has pictures, letters, post cards, songs i composed, everything that has to do with Nathan and me. I go to the docks and send a mesage to Nathan 'I need to see you NOW. Meet me at the docks.' then i wait for him.

Nathan----I go sit by Brooke "Will you tell me what is wrong?"

Brooke:" nothing i am just real tird and stuff i know you need to be here for your kids i just... i am still uncofitable about Haley .... its jsut me im sorry "

Nathan----"Brooke this has been a lot to deal with....I know. I never thought coming here would turn out like this. Haley is marrying Michael soon so you have nothing to worry about. You and me are good Brooke."

Haley
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I keep looking at my cel and wanting to Nathan to reply or come "come on Nathan..."

Nathan----My cell keeps beeping and I look and its Haley. "Brooke....I did not get us very many groceries. I am going to go get us some dinner and I will be back." I leave and go to where Haley is.

Haley
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I am about to leave when i see Nathan coming. My heart starts race.. I sigh this was not good "hi..uh..thanks for coming"

Nathan----"Hi is every thing ok? I mean nothing is wrong with Jamie or Lily?"

Haley
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"Oh no..no they they are ok..they are good..I called because I had to talk to you and.." i take a deep breath 'ok..this is harder than i thought it would be.." i look away "I..I`m gonna say it and only once so you..dont say anything until I finish because i dont think i can say all the words again.."

Brooke:" ok " natahan leaves to go get grocreis i feed Blake and then put him to bed i turn on the TV and see all the news about me and nathan and the baby being famouse is kinda hard i tunr off the tv and go lay down next to Blake and fall asleep wating for nathan to come home

Nathan----"Say what ever you have to say Hales. I will not stop you."

Haley
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"O-ok...thanks.' i take a deep breath and get quiet for a while tthen start talking 'There is no easier way to say this to just say, ok?? I still have feelings for you, i`ve shouldnt but i do and I need to stop them because I am going to get married tomorrow and I need to let go off you..once for all. I keep asking myself why I still have feelings for you if you screwed my best friend over and over again when WE were togheter, when you said you loved me and wanted to be with me, when we spent that amazing weekend and you went back and continuing cheating on me behind my back! Do you have any idea how many nights I spent trying to figure out why you did this to me??? Why you lied and broke my heart? I kept thinking, maybe i wasnt enough, wild enough, sexual enough, I kept thinking that I was not enough for you... I`ve wrote tons of songs about us and my pain and heart break..you know that romantic notion that all the garbage and the pain is actually really healing and beautiful and sort of poetic?? It`s not Nathan . It`s just garbage and it is pain and no matter how many poetics or song you write, that pain in your heart?? It never goes away." I say with tears in my eyes "And when i found out about you marrying Brooke?? I saw on the news..the day you said yes to her..was the day you ended any possibilities of us getting back otgheter at all..that was the moment i knew you never loved me..I was just a girl that you met, had some good times and got bored..you said once that she needed you..she was more weak or whatever and that I was strong and didnt need you..that`s bullsh!t Nathan!! I needed you as much as she needed..I needed to be with you that excuse..was the worst ever. So..I`m done..I`m done doing this...loving you or aching for you..I`m done of feeling this way, thinking about you and us and our past. I`m done with this pain I feel everytime I see you..cuz it reminds me of what you did to me..I`m just done. And please stop saying Micheal is lucky, or touching my face, looking at me that way because I cant do this anymore!! I don`t need this right now. What we had was..was...was..was fake..the only good thing that came out of all the lies and betrayl was Jamie and Lily, they brought me back to life..I knew that they would never let me down or alone. " I get the box and kinda throw on the floor "These are all the pictures, letters, mixtapes, cards, songs i wrote..this is all I kept from years about us..and I dont want it anymore.... I cant have it anymore because this is a past that it will never go back so I need to move on and leave the past behind..so take it and do whatever you want, burn it, cut it I dont care but I want you to read one song I wrote..I wrote when I found out about you and Brooke getting married..I want you to understand once for all what I felt.." I look down "Now i need you to say it Nathan, say that I am right, that everything i said to you right now is the true, you never loved me, that i was just another girl, that you dont have feelings for me..I want you to say it so i can let go off you once for all." I look into his eyes and I have tears in mine "Say it.." i say this in a broken tone.

Nathan-----"I .....I can not say that Haley.......It is not the truth. I did and I still do love you. I love you....ok.....God... I have always loved both of you. When you wanted to go to school in New York I thought it was a really good opportunity for you. Brooke and I went to the same school and we were always together and so we got closer. That week end we had was really great and I went back to school and tried to distance myself from her. She was there Haley and you were so far away. I know that is a really stupid excuse but that is what happened. Than you came to school and caught Brooke and me together. I know that hurt you.....I was a selfish b*****d thinking I could have both of you. You told me you were pregnant and I told Brooke we could not be together. You were still in New York and I was still at Duke. That part was all my fault. Than the summer came and we went home and I ended things with her and we were good again for a little while. Than you went back to school in NY and you told me the babies had died. I tried to stay close to you ....to help you thru this but you asked me to leave you alone. That it was too hard to talk to me so I did what you asked me to. I was so hurt so Brooke and me got back together and that is when we got married. I never meant to hurt you Haley but it is not fair for you to say that what I felt for you was fake because it never was. Now every time I look at you my heart starts to beat faster and my stomach gets that weird feeling and I am happy. God....I feel like I am cheating on my wife.......I love you and I will always love you.....now you have this really good guy who wants to marry you and he is there for Jamie and Lily also....which is amazing. I know you love him Haley so you should be with him. I think maybe now you can under stand a little more what loving two people is like. I want you to be happy. Maybe I should have kept all of this to myself and never said any thing but with what you just said I could not have you think that my feelings for you were never real and that I just used you. I am so....so sorry I hurt you so badly." I stop and put one hand on her face. "Hales......"