I am finding a lot of satisfaction in rewatching eps that i enjoyed over the last 4-5 years.

It beats the hell outta all that board drama.

I know some of you have seen your favs a million times; so try something close to them or try another season; and then some bright light bulb should flash on "that other BSG" board to stop bickering and start sharing final thoughts.

"Do you remember?"

"Wasn't he'/she. that Cylon....."

I'll get ya started.... I was soooo floored seeing how new the old gal looked and how young they all seem and fresh-faced and excited. I even taped the pre-special (I had forgotten)

I forgot about Tigh having 2 eyes; and I forgot Gaeta was such a good guy, so eager to please and had both legs. I had forgotten why I used to like Helo ......now I know the Caprica story arc.

And Dualla, all dewey-eyed for Billy.

I reawakened a love with this show; and remember why i stayed.

It is the sum of many parts; my boys bein' bad ass to "Leavin" in a Base STAR" Hope we don't have to come back here again."Mr Wu, I know they are your design, but man at the end they were my sweets!

Yeah, kinda puts all the bickering and calling out to rest in my mind. It is much more than a producer and his wife or a single actor or just the actors or just the CGI people or one group.

It was a gift and a labor of love for eternity and will not be replaced;

though we might disagree that not all cylinders fired at all times for 5 years, we can agree that someone, probably someone we all just saw the name flash by in the credits, came to the table and gave it all they had for one ep, or an arc or for the whole frackin" SPACE OF TIME.

For that one person, give them the respect THEY deserve, and spread the love; look at your old faves or new flaves and you sort through the eps with a fresh pair of eyes. Look at more than the towel or the red dress. Take it all in and be appreciative to them ALL.

And though no one asks my advice; my advice to you Ron is to NOT go back to boards;

you need to focus on what's to come, not what has transpired.

It's an unpopular view but well; you can't reclaim March 20, 2009..... it is gone.

The look backs are our territory now; you did your final good-byes w/ the podcasts.

Let go and clear your mind; take another shower if you must but you have work to do; a wife to love and children to raise.

Go on now and get on outta here.

Caprica.

I made myself go back and watch the Pegasus Gina and Sharon moments.

I cried for them, I cried for me; and then I found a small place of peace that I'm no longer that girl.

That bad things can happen to anyone but i don't have to live there. I survived.

The tears flowed copiously when Adama apologized; that no one should have to go through that.

I hope to hell no one ever does.

The wanting to die moments, yeah, been there, the anger and violence, and withdrawing from love, yeah that too..

I don't want to be that victim anymore; and well when people ignore me or use me I sometimes go back to that very dark place of no control.

But, then I tell myself, I survived; I contribute, I am valuable and unique and I have purpose and I do have control over my body now and not to let go of that.

Illness like this puts me in that dark place sometimes but I will survive.

I will contribute.

I am valuable and definitely unique as we all are.

I will live.... not just survive.

To the writer of those poignant lines..... thanks.

Did anyone see this? http://forums.scifi.com/index.php?showtopic=2329752




I laughed until I had tears streaming down my face!

The final pics needs to be Siegfried and Roy and A tiger though. It fits w/ the theme and well National Geographic.

DNow now we all know Nat Geo is a pubescent's way of seeing female charms until they get steal their dad's skin mag.

You know I'm just teasing, but I grew up w/ 4 boys. I know how they acted

And wow, you learn a lot more about the true natures of people when you cross reference w/ other boards; wow. I go over and get some moist cross info.

Hmmmmmm. very interesting.

Hey, I'm crazee to him but finally oh finally some of my crazy chanting get results!

Mr. Bear it's about frakin' time you made a honest woman out of her.

I'm yelped in joy when I read it. "YES!"

I knew that she was for you when you were in the hospital. I'm like... what is up with the dragging of feet she's so GOOD for you and well, some things should not be put on hold ...work eh.... this is a life plan that's good for you.


Men, bah.....

I'm just giddy and feel so good about this.

Eh, I'll never meet the guy but hey it's good when good decisions are made.

Woot! Congrats to you both.

Well, the muse sings to me strong tonight. i'm working up a short story in my head called

"Visions at Lone Coyote Canyon"

Atypical love story of the vision of the man I see constantly in my visions; the face is clear. Native American; with the blood of warriors and medicine men from many generations.

I've always been partial to them; especially Sioux.

He sees me, I see him...in visions. It's been like that for oh 10-12 years. Sometimes,in strong dreams I'm weaving baskets while he watches me; i've had dreams I've sang the warriors out to battle, on births and deaths..... he protects me from incoming. What.... I never know 'cause he's good at it. He knows me inside and out. I know him.

He is very intimidating; to those he sees as a threat;

I wish he was real! Well i ended a relationship w/ that other native American guy but I never thought of him. His name began with J but I always thought of Joe but that was NOT him and well, "Joe"'s face is what I saw, and was confused when i saw this guy because well Joe doesn't look like him. I kept thinking his name was Joe.

Close, but J was not Joe.

I can be strange, but if you've had visions like that and strong dreams often of the same Joe well... what can I say.

I must put this to rest of it will plague me; I will combine my knowledge of Native American lore and my own strange "feels".

It is good these dreams are stronger now; it shows me life moves on.

later.