Joy
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~; maybe...but i dont think i was famous other wise people would recognise me.."i chuckle a little ï'm sorry for waking you up Julian" I touch the piano again and take a deep breath "this is all really frustrating, you know?? Knowing that I can remember how to play and sing a stupid song and don't remember who I was or where I came from, my family, wwell that is if i ever had one...it is the worst feeling ever, to not know who you are, yes you can build someone new and this person might be better than i was, but it still feels incomplete..like a huge piece of me is missing, i felt really connected with that song i've just played, but the was it, just the feeling and not the meaning.."


Lucas
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~"ok..."i sigh

Brooke: we get in the car and drive back home i was nerivs to go in but i knew this had to be done we walk in the house and i go stright to the kichen and finish getting the food ready

Julian----"Joy...I am here for you whether you remember your past or not. I know this is hard for you and I am sorry. If I could I would take all the pain away."

Nathan----Jamie is sitting on the couch with Luke. I walk in and look at my brother than at my son. "Jamie....I....I put up new flyers in Charlotte and Brooke and me passed out a hundred more. After dinner I am going to go put them up in the towns around here. You can help if you want." I did not mention Brooke and me or the kiss or how we feel about each other.

Joy
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"Thanks, and that's why I care about you so much, because you don't mind about me being a freak or something, you just want to help, once i open my heart again I know it will be your"I say with a small smile.

Jamie
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I keep playing video game and don't look at him "Ï don't want her leaving here anymore, this is not her house"

Julian----"You are not a freak. You are beautiful and sweet and kind. You are so strong also. Joy this is hard I know that but I am here for you."

Nathan----"Brooke has helped us both buddy so much. I...I am not going to ask her to leave. We both still need her. I know you are angry but we both love you."

Joy
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"Thanks...I just feel like a freak sometimes, someone that has no identy or memory...it feels like a freak.."i wipe away my tears "I know you are here for me..you are the best guy ever..."i say as i gently caress his cheek.


Jamie
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"If she doesn't leave than I will, I will leave with uncle Lucas, she is not my momma and I don't want her here, If she stays I will leave with uncle Lucas and aunt Peyton.'

Julian----"You are so beautiful Joy." I want so much to kiss her but I dont.

Nathan----Tears come to my eyes "Jamie...I love you son and I need you. You are staying here with me. I am your daddy and you are not going to live with Luke." I glare at Luke "Did you tell him he can live with you?"

Joy
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I blush a little "Thanks..I guess maybe you can call me a beautiful mess then"I chuckle and little and look into his eyes then he lips and get chills.


Jamie
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"I am staying here only if she leaves, i don't want to live with aunt Brooke anymore. "


Lucas
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"what??? of course not Nathan, what are you talking about?? "

Brooke: i bring in dinner to the table and i hear what they all say but i pretent to act like i dont know"

Nathan----"Did you tell my son he could go and live with you?" I am pissed thinking this is some thing Luke might do wanting to play the hero. "Jamie is my son and he belongs with me." I look at Brooke as she brings the food in "Jamie...I want you to go wash your hands for dinner." Things are really intense in this room now and I am glaring at my brother.

Julian----"Can I....can I kiss you?"

Joy
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i swallow and smile a little then nod my head yes.


Lucas
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"I know that Nathan, I told him that, but he is really issed, I am not trying to steal him from you! "


Jamie
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"I'm not hungry...make her leave daddy, i don't want her here. ' Because of her my daddy was forgetting about my momma.

Brooke: i hear Jamie say that and it broke my heart it hurt so bad i set the table and then go in my room and back my bags there was so way i was going to hurt jamie any longer

Julian----I lean over and gently kiss her lips. It was a sweet and romantci kiss that showed her I care about her with out pushing it beyond that. I know I have to take things really slow with this woman.

Nathan----"Jamie.....I .....I was so in love with your momma son. What we had most people never get and I will never stop loving her. She is gone though and I never meant to and I swear I did not do it in purpose but I fell in love with Brooke. You are my son and your place is with me. I love you more than I could ever tell you. I need Brooke also. She loves you so much. Neither of us meant to hurt you. Please do not make me choose."

Jamie
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"you..you love her..." i get more mad and sad "i hate both of you!!! When my momma come back I will live with her, I want Brooke out of my house or i will live with uncle Luke or even with Q`s family, it is better then leaving here with people that forghot about my momma!!!"


Joy
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I kiss him back and It feels amazing. I then pull away after a while and i look into his eyes while smiling "well..i know i don`t rememebr much what i like but..i like kissing you" i say as i blush.

Brooke: i hear what jamie says and it hurts all i have done for him i go out the door with my bags and nathan sees me i look at him and mouth i love you and point to the door i did not want Jamie to see me

Julian----"Kissing you feels s o right..."

Nathan----I watch as Brooke walks out the door with her stuff. I do not stop her. When she is gone I look down so Jamie and Luke wont see tears "Ok James Lucas she is gone now....ok? You drove her away."

Joy
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"yeah...i think it does" i caress his cheek and kiss him again then pull away.


Jamie
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"she had no right to be here, she is not my momma and she will never be, momma will be back."

BRooke: i go to my car and cry for a bit then i call my old apartment people and theysay i can have my apartment back so i go and start to unpack there

Julian----"We have to take this slowly Joy."

Nathan----"I...I am not hungry. Luke and you can eat. I am going to my room." I have a bottle of vodka stashed there and I go in my room and start drinking.

Joy
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I nod "I know, and I want us to go slow..I was just kissing you" i say looking into his eyes "is that wrong..."

Jamie
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"I`m going to my room uncle Luke."


Lucas
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I sigh and knock on Nathans door.

Julian----"Not wrong at all. I think I said that to myself more than you."

Nathan-----"Luke....go away."

Joy
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"I guess we should go to bed now, right..I mean i go to my bed and you go to..to yours"


lUCAS
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"Come on Nate.."

Julian----"Yeah...I guess we should."

Nathan----"I do not feel like talking right now. You wont under stand any more than Jamie does."

Brooke: i am at my apatment and i felt bad for leaving nathan so i send him a text " nathan i am sorry i just left without saying anything to you i just... it hrt so bad to hear Jamie say those things i have never wanted to hurt him or you or anyone i still do love oyu and i want to be with you but i just cant hurt Jamie please just be with him and care for him i love oyu bye"

i go on and do some londry

Nathan----I read Brooke's text message and sit for a long time just thinking. Than I write her back 'I can not live a life with out you in it. Haley changed me in to a man I never thought I could be. You make me be able to continue to be that man. We have both changed so much since we were young. I love you Brooke. I need you' This was a long message but hit send anyways and I am so nervous to see what she will say.

Joy
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"Ok..good night" I say as i get up and he does too. I kiss him quickly, he nods at me then takes my arm gently and kiss me again but this time with passion, i kiss him back then pull away "wow...great way to say good night.." i chuckle a little.


Luke
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"come on Nate..."


after this we can jump to Haley going back to Tree Hill with Julian, right

Brooke:i read nathans message and i think for awhile and send back " i love you too, we are together i love you "



ok is she coming back now?

she`s coming back in the next day, since they are during the night, she will come with Julian

Julian----The next day comes and I go to my meeting and get every thing out of the way as fast as possible. I get back to my home about noon and Joy is ready to leave. "We should have lunch first..."

Nathan----I do not open the door and Luke finally gets the hint telling me this is not over. I drink the bottle of vodka and pass out.

Joy
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I take a shower then get changed, I put a jeans and a tank top then put a little make up but not so much, then I finish packing. I was really excited. I hear the door and go there when Julian comes "hey!" i smile "yeah, I agree."


Jamie
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I go to bed and sleep well, for the first time i felt my momma again, she was coming back, I knew that.

Julian----"We can go thru a drive thru and get hamburgers if you want to."

Nathan---I wake up with a hang over but I still get up and go to Jamie's room. He has school so I have to make his breakfast and make sure he gets there ok.

Joy
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"Yes, let`s do that!! I love hamburgers" i smile and get my bag "i don`t know how long we are staying in Tree Hill so I packed some stuffs, no much, but not little either" i chuchle.

Jamie
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"morning daddy!" i smile "i had a great dream!!"

Julian----"A few days probably. I have already talked to Luke about this but we have to have a few meetings to get things worked out."

Nathan----"Really? I am glad buddy. Want to share it with me?"

Jamie
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"I dreamed that momma was back, she said she was lost but she was ok, she was back and said she would never leave us again. I can feel her daddy..she is coming back to us, I know it, momma is coming back to us!! We are finally gonna be happy again!!"


Joy
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"I am sooo nervous to meet him, he is so talented, actually i am nervous to meet everything, Peyton, Nathan, everyone! I really hope they don`t think I am an annoying and crazy fan or something!"

Julian----"I am sure they will love you. Luke is a normal..nice guy."

Nathan----"I have had dreams like that too son. Your momma is a very special lady and if she is still out there I know she will some how find her way back here."

Jamie
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"She will!! And it will be soon daddy, I can feel it, and when she does we are going to be a family again!'

Joy
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"He might be, he has such a good heart, i mean based in what I read" i smile then he puts our bags in the car "i guess it`s all set"

BRooke: i had all my stuff still at nathans house so i go over there scared and knock on the door

Nathan----"Well it is time for you to get up and dressed for school. I will make your cereal and eggs. See you in a few minutes buddy." I hear a knock on the door and I go open it and Brooke is there. I stare at her for a moment. "Brooke..."

Julian----"We should be in Tree Hill in a few hours Joy. Than you can go looking around at all the stuff you read about."

Brooke:" hi.... im sorry to come by so early i just needed to get the rest of my stuff and i ..... i missed you "

Jamie
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'Ok daddy!!" i run and go get ready.


Joy
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"I am dying to see the Karen`s Cafe, the rivercourt, oh and the docks too, it seems a beautiful place"

Julian----"Yeah it sounds like a really interesting place to me also. I have never been there."

Nathan----"I am glad you came...I missed you." I put my arms around her and just hold her close to me.

Brooke:" im sorry i left last night i just could not listin to " i smell his breath " nathna have you been drinking?"

Joy

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"really..." he nods "and it is so near Charlotte..I googled about the town, it is small but very charming"

Nathan----"Yeah I drank a little last night. Jamie was so upset and you left and I felt so alone."

Julian----"We can see what ever you want to see Joy. I want to spend as much time with you as I can."

Joy
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"I would like that" i smile then take his hand and kiss it "But i know you are a bussy man so I will try not to bother you or anything"

Brooke:" nathan im sorry i left but i do nto want you to start drinking , come on you are better then that"

Julian----"Joy...I want to spend as much time with you as I can. You could never bug me. I love you."

Nathan----"Last night I needed to drink Brooke. It was the only way I could get thru your leaving and Jamie hating the fact that I have fallen in love with you."

Joy
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"you..you love me..."

Brooke:" i understand you were hurt just promis me you will not drink agin for that reason"

Julian----"Yes Joy I do. I love you."

Nathan----"I will try my hardest not to. All the alcohol is gone now anyways."