Brooke: he feels so good in me and i knew right then that i loved him and i would not give him up

Lucas:" im sorry i did not want to tell you that to hurt you i just want you to have all the issuse going on right now, you seem to be happy with Julian he is a good guy "



Joy
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"he would never hurt me.." i sigh "i just thnik you`ve shouldnt told me these things right now Lucas." this guy was supposed to be my best friend and he is here telling me these hurtful thing about Nathan and Brooke, what the hell!

Luccas:" im sorry Joy i will go "

Joy
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I nod and just sit there, for some odd reason my heart was hurting so much right now.

Nathan----Brooke and me make love. Than afterwards I hold her in my arms and we both fall asleep. I start haing a dream of the first time I kissed Haley at her parents.

Dream----UTSIDE HALEY’S HOUSE. NATHAN’S throwing rocks at a window]

HALEY: Trying to wake up my parents? That’s their room.

[NATHAN turns around to see HALEY behind him]

NATHAN: Wait! Haley, look, I need to apologize, okay?

HALEY: You should write them in bulk if you’re going to hand apologies out that often.

NATHAN: Can we just- I don’t know how to do this, alright? I’m not like you.

HALEY: What does that mean?

NATHAN: I screw up a lot, alright? And being around you, I just, I don’t want to be

that guy anymore.

HALEY: Well who do you want to be, Nathan?

NATHAN: I want to be someone who’s good enough to be seen with you.

HALEY: [Frustrated] Well you should’ve thought of that last night. You know, I keep, I keep putting myself out there, and you keep blowing it, it’s probably a good thing because at this point there’s nothing you could say or do that’s gonna surprise me.

[NATHAN leans in and kisses her suddenly]

HALEY: [Quietly] Except that. You shouldn’t have done that, Nathan.

NATHAN: I wanted to.

HALEY: Yeah.

[HALEY pauses, looking at him, then suddenly leans forward, kissing him again, this second kiss much more passionate than the first


I wake up and think of Haley than I look at Brooke laying naked next to me.

oh Nathan had sex with Brooke, poor Haley lol

Brooke: i was sleeping and herd and felt a noise " nathan... are yo ok "

Joy
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I get up afte r a while then start running again, i go back to the room i was staying and see Julian sleeping on the couch "You`re too amazing.." i whisper.

Nathan---"Yeah...um ...I am ok." I have tears in my eyes but I do not wnat Brooke to know this. God I feel so guilty I cheated on Haley. I lay there while Brooke seems to be asleep. My mind keeps thinking about Haley and Brooke and I have no idea what I am going to do.

Joy
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I take a shower then fall slaeep, they next day comes and i wake up, i remember that Nathan said he would give me the tour but i don`t know if i a mready to fafce him, especially after what LLucas told me, I got to the bathroom, take another sower, get dressed then go knock on Julian`s door.

Julian---I am awake and Joy comes and knocks on my door. I get up and go open it "Good morning..."

Joy
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"hey" i smile a little "how did you sleep..you know before i woke up and ran way, sorry about that btw"

Julian---"I am ok..how are you? I was worried about you. What did you do last night? I mean who all did you get to talk to?"

Haley
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"I went for a run...you know how always makes me feel better" i sigh "the i stoped by at this court by river or something and Lucas talked to me...i don`t get it, if he is my friend why did he say that to me!!" Julian asks 'said what' "he told me that Nathan and Brooke are together, even though they love me, they got closer while i was gone, why the hell did he tell me that!!! So basicaly he told me that Nathan, the guy who is my husband cheated on me! Great friend this Lucas is , i bet all he wrote is a lie, i guess th e love Nathan felt for me was pretty weak, and now i am more sure that he didn`t want me to come back, maybe i should give him the divorce since i asked in the first place!"

Julian----"Woah...slow down...you can not jump to conclusions Joy. You do not remember any thing so you can not assume things. Right now you need to take things slow. I am here and I will not let any one hurt you. Get to know these people and do not think they are out to hurt you. I think what Luke wriote in the book was true but things change. You are not the same person you were when you lived here."

Joy
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"How can i not think they don`t want to hurt me if everything i find out or remember is just hurtful things! Most them, most of my dreams Julian and flashbacks or whatever, they..they are bad, they are moments that i wished i had really forget!! It`s weird because a part of me feels like i do belong here but the other part feels like they are all better without me..I really don`t know what to do, the only thing i am sure ist hat I am so tired, I`m tired of not knowing who I am, who I was, of having this dreams and waking up scared and confused, i am just so tired!'

Julian----"I know you are. I wish I could help you but I do not know how. I will go and talk to Luke and Nathan."

Joy
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"Thank`s..but you don`t have to Julian, you`ve done so much for me already"

Brooke:" ok " i lay back down but i can not sleep i was worried about him i get up and look " nathan talk to me please whats wrong?"

Julian----"I want to help you. I love you Joy and I want to do what ever I can to make this easier for you."

Nathan----"I...I have not been with any one but Haley in a long time. I love you Brooke and I wanted this so much but a part of me feels like I cheated."

Joy
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"Thanks..." I smile and kiss his lips then pull away "so uh..wanna join me for breakfast...I`m kinda hungry and I bet you are too, we can go find a little cafe or something. Since we both had a crappy night i thought we could start our day with the right foot" I chuckle a little and look at him "And I am sure you have a big day today, meetings about the movie and everything, it`s kinda weird to think that I will be featured in the movie, well not me me, but someone playing me..make sure you get a actress worthy my charms and everything" i say teasing him.

Brooke:" oh..... im sorry i should never have made oyu do this "

Nathan---"Brooke...you did not make me do any thing. I wanted to be with you as much as you wanted to be with me. I just ...I dont know...I feel weird is all. Haley is still my wife but I do not know the woman who came back today. You are the woman I am close to now and I love you....I wanted to show you how much. I am just so confused."

Joy
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"Thanks..." I smile and kiss his lips then pull away "so uh..wanna join me for breakfast...I`m kinda hungry and I bet you are too, we can go find a little cafe or something. Since we both had a crappy night i thought we could start our day with the right foot" I chuckle a little and look at him "And I am sure you have a big day today, meetings about the movie and everything, it`s kinda weird to think that I will be featured in the movie, well not me me, but someone playing me..make sure you get a actress worthy my charms and everything" i say teasing him.

BRooke: i was happy to know he wanted me as much as i wanted him " nathan i know you are confused but .... it is not right to anyone to make people wait to hear things if you want to be with me then be with me, if you want to work thing with haley then do it, you have ou have chose its not ... its not fair "

Julian---"Luke and I are going to work on the script today. The book is too long to make in to a movie so we have to edit it. When we cast roles I will make sure you like who plays Haley."

Nathan----"Yeah...I know...it is just that I love both of you."

~Joy
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"I will trust you" i smile "so..breakfast.."

Brooke:"yeah i.... i know" i get out of bed and wrap the sheet around me i go into the kichen and make some coffie

Jamie
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I wake up early in the morning and go see my daddy, he is not in hsi bed, i call for him and no one answer so i start to get scared and call my uncle Lucas.

remember he is with skills

I forgot lol

Julian----"Hey you are going to be ok."

Nathan----I lay back in bed. I hate knowing Brooke is hurt. I never meant to hurt her. This is so confusing right now. No matter what I choose some one is going to get hurt.

Haley
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"thanks.." i hold him "thank you"

Julian----"I am here for you Joy."

Joy
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"Thanks'" i smile and then go kiss his lips "so...would you like to have breakfast with me"

Julian---"Sure there is a restaurant Luke told me about that is really good. I would take you around today but I am supposed to meet with Luke."

Joy
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"It`s ok, we can have breakfast together then you can go to your meeting and then we can meet, i am going to take a walk around the town, see if something looks familiar, Nathan told me he would show me around but..I..I don´t know" i sigh.

Brooke: i come back to the bedroom with the coffie i give him a cup " here i thought oyu might like this"

Julian---"I hate to say this but maybe spending some time with him will help your memory."

Nathan----"Thank you." I take the coffee and sip it. "This is good."

Joy
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I look at im "re-really..you really think so.."

Brooke: i sip my coffie " thanks.... so.... its 9am are you going to go see Haley today?"

Julian----"Well you said that you remembered more last night. Maybe being wround Nathan will help you."

Nathan----"Yeah I told her I would show her around today."

Joy
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"I..I don`t know..he..he kinda confuses me" i sigh then we go to his car and go get some breakfast.

Julian---"Confuses you how?"

Joy
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"I..I don`t really know..i mean he makes me nervous and i feel weird around him.."

Julian---"Do you....um do you want him Joy? I mean when you look at him how do you feel?"

Joy
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"I..I don`t know..i feel weird..like something pulls me towards him...i just.." i sigh and run my hand thru my hair "i..i don`t know"

Julian---"Ok....um...ok...I will not make this any harder on you by asking you a million questions."

Joy
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"I reallt don`t want to make you feel uncomfortable or upsed...i just don`t know what i am feeling, thats why i can`t say, but just so you know..my feelings for you haven`t changed"

Julian----"I still might lose you." I get quiet when I say this...I was not even going to say it out loud.

Joy
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"You won`t..." i say looking at him "you`re not going to lose me.." he looks into my eyes and i kiss him.